Updated: Jun 17, 2020
When I was much younger I called myself a meditation teacher. I completed a certification in the school / philosophy that I had found on my path up until then. In Mahajrya Buddhism, I started calling myself a spiritual teacher and even a master.
Only with time within the practices of Mahajrya Buddhism, I gradually, painfully realized how I was trying to give myself importance through the label of teacher and master, how I was trying to be more than others, to know more than others, to be respected by others, to be admired by others, to be appreciated by others, to be accepted by others, to be validated by others, to be granted a place in the world by others through the label of being “teacher," or " master. " I never got what I wanted, the way I wanted it. Now I appreciate that I didn't get away with getting it.
As we gain experience within Mahajrya Buddhist practices, we cannot help but see all of this in ourselves and in others. Life just happens, interactions with other Mahajrya students and with our students happen, the ego is revealed, arrogance is simply revealed and if we pay enough attention, the Dharma is revealed and we continue to do our integrations.
It's just like that. It is humiliating and liberating at the same time.
With each emotional integration, we are giving up a little more, we are surrendering ego a little more, but not without first having given a good battle, a good fight, without trying to gain more resources and a better place (rank) in the group.
Then if we persevere and do not feel annihilated by the humiliating lessons and do not put the Dharma and Mahajrya aside, we continue to practice and at some point we can begin to work with the poisons of existence and arrogance more directly and still it is painful, humiliating and liberating at the same time.
Every day of life is the same for the ego. Each integration is the same, a part of me wants to win, a part of me is afraid of losing, a part of me feels that it has already lost. No matter how conscious or advanced or enlightened you are, every observation, contemplation or integration is like that. And the question that Master Maha Vajra teaches (very efficiently) is always the same to ask ourselves, what must I mourn to remain free? Which simply means that there is something I must be willing to lose, let go, release, sacrifice, relinquish, accept, forgive, to remain free.
As teachers we are gradually acquiring mastery and only little by little we are able to leave behind judgments in the way the Dharma is revealed. Little by little we are leaving behind the belief in good and bad teachers/masters, true and false masters, humble or arrogant masters. These labels are nothing more than references to judgments and fears within the competition in which the ego lives.
When I was young and taught meditation I was not worse or less true or with less truth or even less evolved or less conscious than I am now. I only had my experience and lived within it in my reality. Today I only have my experience and I live within it in my reality. I have changed, yes. I have seen things in other ways, yes. I interact with myself and with others in other ways, yes. I cause less suffering for myself and others, yes. But I'm just still me, a self.
You are not a beginner as a teacher. You are not an advanced teacher. You are not a bad or a good teacher. You are not a humble or arrogant teacher or master. You are not a false or true teacher or master. Leave the labels behind. You are just a teacher and you do it the way you do it until you do it differently. And it's OK.
Dharma is being revealed in infinite ways in your life. Dharma is simply happening in the Mahajrya. If you have the desire to teach, teach. You don't have to be a "good" teacher. You do not have to be the "good teacher" of the Mahajrya. You don't have to be a "true" master. You don't have to be anything other than what you already are. Relax and just teach. Just experiment with teaching. Simply play with being a "teacher."
If you teach, you will get what you get, the way you get it and it is perfectly fine. You will simply learn something by teaching something. And it will be a blessing to everyone in some way.
Have faith in yourself. Have faith in the Dharma. You are already taken care of because you are already within the great field within the mind of God; within Mahajrya.
Everything is ok.
Om Shanti Shanti Shanti
P.s. Gratitude and blessings to all Dharma teachers, in and out of the Mahajrya organization, in the past, present and future. Amen.
DARMA NIVEL BASICO